COVID-19 Thoughts (Post 1)

Well. The last three weeks have been…insane. It feels strange to live in what will certainly be a moment in history. Generations from now will read about 2020 and the pandemic and how the world just about shut down. I feel like, much like September 11, we will likely look at this as a turning point in our lives—there will be before Corona Virus and after.

When this started across the world, I never could have imagined how much it would affect our every day lives. I no longer go to my office. My calendar is completely clear through June. My kids are home all the time. I wear a mask and gloves to the grocery store. There was no March Madness or Houston Stock Show…which is when I realized this was no dang joke.

I figure I should document this so that maybe one day my grandchildren can look back and see my thoughts when they read about this in a history book.

The Good

1. Time at home with my family. You all know that I travel for a living. I’m usually gone overnight (or usually multiple nights) twice a month. I’ve tried to really appreciate the time at home to spend with my family. We’ve hiked at the North Place, done science experiments, had art projects, read books, ridden bikes…that’s been a gift.

2. Amazing online content. Thank you, Lord, for the internet. Seriously. From workouts to sermons, zoom calls to podcasts, I do not know how we would survive without the internet. I will say, I find myself overwhelmed sometimes and have had to sort of limit my intake. I have committed to just a couple of podcasts that I am using to minister to me during this time. I can’t watch every Facebook live, but I’ve chosen a couple. I’ve been doing one workout video a day and have found that hugely helpful.

3. My version of 5 to Thrive. I figured out really quick I would need some discipline in my life. (that’s one of my words for 2020…this is not what I had in mind!). I channeled my inner Rachel Hollis and came up with a plan. So I’ve got 5 things I try and do every day: Exercise, Bible, Communion, Gratitude and Water. Not surprisingly, the days I do these are better.

The Bad

1. I never get a minute to myself. I swear to you, my dream right now is being somewhere quiet and calm with no one touching me or asking for a snack. Mama just needs a dang break. I’ve been trying to use the time before the kids wake up or after they go to bed to keep some sanity, but it’s flat hard.

2. I’m going to weigh 300 pounds when this is over. I’m an emotional eater. And it’s Reese’s egg season. And a global pandemic. Can you say perfect storm? Whatever. I have limited myself to baking only on Sunday, so there’s that.

3. People are dying. I’ve had to stop listening to the news most of the time. Thousands of people have died. It’s easy to read that—but each one had a story and a family and it is just a lot. I personally know three people who have it. Two have mostly recovered (praise God!) The third really needs your prayers.

The Lessons

1. The church is not a building. I sure hope that I’m right here, but I think the Church could really see revival during this pandemic. There are so many services and sermons and podcasts online now. Everyone everywhere can tune in to church from their couches. I’m not saying I think this is ideal or something we should change to…but I am saying that it gives people the opportunity to listen who might never step foot into a church building. I, personally, have been loving following churches in Nashville and Portland and sitting under their teaching. And the first Sunday of this mess, my college church in Stillwater did virtual communion and it brought me to tears. I’ve done it daily since. Maybe we needed the reminder about the whole hands and feet assignment we have been given.

2. I am not as important as I think I am. We will see, but this sure may be my biggest takeaway from this whole experience. It’s so easy to think we are important. I’ve said more than once “well if I don’t go do that presentation, who will?!” Maybe no one…and guess what, the world keeps turning. I’ve been far less productive than I usually am in the office and, well, no one cares. It’s been a real weight off of my shoulders to think this way.

3. “Do for one what you wish you could do for everyone.” Gosh, there are people hurting. These situations can be really hard for me because when I can’t fix everything, I tend to freeze. I feel overwhelmed and just don’t know what to do. Annie F. Downs shared this Andy Stanley quote on her podcast and I have adopted it as my mantra. We are so fortunate to be in a position where we can help, and we have taken advantage of that and done what we can for certain people in our lives. My single action might not change the world for everyone, but it may for the people who I can help…and if everyone did so, the world just might look different.

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